Sunday, May 17, 2009

My Yellow Flower

I found this poem tonight that seemed to fit perfectly about how I feel. Today was the 10 year anniversary of little Jayden leaving this life. I miss her so! We took beautiful yellow flowers to her grave. They were perfect! I remember when I spoke at her funeral I said yellow was my favorite color on her. She was a brilliant light in my life.... my little angel.
I miss you Jaydee!

I find an old photograph
and see your smile.
As I feel your presence anew,
I am filled with warmth
and my heart remembers love.

I read an old card
sent many years ago
during a time of turmoil and confusion.
The soothing words written then
still caress my spirit
and bring me peace.

I remember who you used to be
the laughter we shared
and wonder what you have become.
Where are you now,
Where did you go,
When the body is left behind
and the spirit is released to fly?

Perhaps you are the morning bird
singing joyfully at sunrise,
or the butterfly that dances
so carelessly on the breeze
or the rainbow of colors
that brightens a stormy sky
or the fingers of afternoon mist
delicately reaching over the mountains
or the final few rays of the setting sun
lighting up the skies
edging the clouds with a magical glow.

I miss your being
but I feel your presence,
In whatever form you choose to take,
however you now choose to be.

Your spirit has become for me
a guardian angel on high
guiding, advising, and watching over me.

I remember you.
You are with me
and I am not afraid.

Kirsti A. Dyer


Diana said...

so beautiful!
I love your family.

Silver Back said...

I love you Amy. What a beautiful night we had visiting her at the cemetery tonight. I love to hear about her and feel your love for her. And I can't wait to meet her someday.

melanie said...

It is amazing to me how fast time seems to go. I remember so much about the day before and than the following days. I am glad that time takes the pain away.. I love you so much Amy! Thanks for being one of my best friends.

Heather said...

What an absolutely beautiful piece of prose! Thanks for sharing. It's is so hard to believe that 10 years have passed since then. I still remember that day if it were yesterday. I love you!

preitygirl said...

I really think that, that poem says it all! The missing them will never go away but at least the pain eases! Time goes by fast and yet so slow when you look back on those days! I am thinking of you!

Angela said...

I thought about Jayden many times yesturday. I wanted to blog about her, but I really couldn't quite come up with the words. Sometimes I can, sometimes I can't.
These are a few things that remind me of Jayden:

The song "Abide With Me" (sung at funeral)
Joel's Birthday
The Temple (I know I will see her again)

The time passes, but I haven't forgotten her. I miss her!